Flowers take time to bloom

This past week and a half has been pretty crappy. Between my niece having to have another procedure for her heart, my sister getting a near fatal bite from a Copperhead Snake, and losing someone really close to me it's been pretty stressful. Not to mention I have been so tired with this pregnancy that even going up the stairs a few times a day seem like a chore. This baby has been literally taking all of my energy, but that's ok because he is totally worth it. There are also other things that have been hectic since hubby switched branches, but this would be even longer if I delve into that. I have learned a lot of lessons this week on life and how to confront hardships when they arise (even more-so than before). It doesn't seem to matter what you say, there is always someone who will take it the wrong way or twist it to something it's not. I have worried myself beyond belief over things I can not change. This is not good for me or my growing baby. When you go through rough times, it seems like you really know who your true friends are....and that's a good thing. I feel blessed for having those in my life that really do care and are honestly good people in general. And for everyone else, that's ok too.....people are who they are and I believe that we all go through stages in life that either make us or break us and we just have to learn from those experiences and not make certain mistakes again. There will always be people who take advantage of other people, or those who just want to start drama for whatever immature reasons they have.


Going through what I have been through has really showed me a lot about myself. I AM a good person....I'm great actually. I have a heart of gold and give out love and support without a second thought because it's who I am. I'm genuine, sensitive, giving, and more. I recently second-guessed who I was because of things that have gone on, but when it comes down to it that's unfair for those around me who do truly love who I am. Why change the good in me just because there are a few bad seeds out there who don't get me or what I stand for or the hardships I go through?  So for now, I am re-shifting my priorities. I will still give out my love and support 100% because that's who I am, but I will no longer put people as a priority when I am just an option for them. I am more than that and I deserve more too. I am a great mother and awesome wife. I love my family with all my heart. God has blessed us too much for me to be down and out over people and situations who really don't matter in the long run. 


Re-focusing on the positives in my life and keeping an open heart to those that NEED me are what's going to happen. I'm truly blessed to have a man who loves me 100% and would NEVER do anything to hurt me or our children. I asked him today what quality I possess that he is proud to see in me and without thinking he said I'm the most selfless person he knows. A friend reminded me today that the only people who really matter are my husband, LJ, and this baby boy growing inside me and relying on me 100% and that everything/everyone else is a bonus. An old friend reminded me that I visited him in the hospital years ago when not many others did and he still remembers it to this day and appreciated it. I feel that God knew I needed to hear these things to put me back on track to being me again. I am an amazing person and I will never doubt that again. No more stressing because my family and this little baby growing inside me deserves more than that!